A start of the month, a new beginning? I've reconsidered a lot of things in my life. First off, I need to take a nice long break from video games. They eat up too much time, and I don't have that kind of time to spare now. Too much work to do. But more importantly, they take my energy and time away from the important things in life... people, and God.
I know I need to reach out to people more... be more social, and talk to people I don't know, and people I don't know that well. Can't just stand there and be a wallflower the whole time any more... though it's so easy to, I need to push myself... if I want to be something different, which I do.
Had a pretty good conversation with a friend tonite... online, as usual. She had been gone for a little while, and I realized how much I enjoy chatting with her. There aren't too many people I can say I really enjoy chatting with... with most people, they either don't respond in time, or it's very one-sided; one person does all the talking. With her, I seem to have no problem being myself and expressing my thoughts. And we connect on a lot of issues.
Had a conversation with a Christian in my dorm too.. that really helped me... sharing thoughts/problems. They really do seem trivial once I start talking about it... but they really get to me if I don't share them. There's a passage in Phillipians about not grumbling when you do things... but it's so hard to do them otherwise... I'm missing something here... anyone care to explain?
So life seems better... I'm less stressed now. I was feeling kinda lonely earlier today and last nite... but I know now that I'm really not alone... even in THIS world. God is always with me, and He provides me with friends for support. Though I focused so much on being there for others, He's been providing me with friends to be there for me. How awesome is that?