Now is the month of May. Hurrah! And it seems I have been opening up with the flower buds. I feel a lot more social now... a lot more alive. I'm reaching out again... something I haven't done in months. I'm trying to meet people I don't know, and trying to get to know better people I do know. Let's hope this is a permanent change.
My knee's acting up now. Too bad. I'm really getting into Wushu now... everything's starting to click. I'm starting to figure things out now... and it feels good doing it. But with my knee bothering me, I should probably just go easy on it... maybe even skip a few Wushu classes. Darn. Well, this Friday I have to lead a section anyways, so I won't be able to make class.
Well, I still haven't done any coding for my project due Thurs... I did some reading, and watched a lecture on the project. I guess that counts as progress. I'm just afraid I'm going to be coding all day all nite for the next 2 or 3 days... not to mention reading too many papers, and preparing for the section I have to lead on Friday.
Talked with a friend about relationships, and how they relate to happiness. I think she, like many people, was under the impression that once you find that "special someone", everything will be great... just like it was out of a fairy tale. In reality, I'm sure any couple can attest to the fact that it's not paradise. It takes a lot of time and energy to make a relationship work, and there are so many new worries; It's not better or worse, it's just different.
So how can anyone achieve fulfillment then? Well, I think a good way to think about it is to count your blessings... and thank God for those in your life. Instead of focusing on what you don't have and what you think you need to be happy, focus on what you have, and how that makes you feel. This doesn't mean to hinge your happiness on your current status/possessions either. Rather, this means that you should not desire or want anything... because then you just set yourself up for a fall if you don't get it. Just expect nothing... and take all the good things your receive as good things.