That's right, another journal entry, in the same month! Impressive, I know. Hopefully this'll help me get things straight in my head. There's so much going on in my life right now...
So first of all, school is intensifying. Yes, I'm only taking two real classes. Unfortunately, this week I have 3 classes worth of reading to do, a research paper to write, 20 Stanford Fund letters to write, and arrangement to finish, music to memorize, and a midterm on Friday... on top of the usual rehearsals, wushu practices, extra wushu practices, organ practice, job search, and daily grind. I'm sooooo glad I'm not TA'ing this quarter.
But perhaps more troubling is my declining spiritual life. Although I had a good "talk" with a friend, I haven't exactly put on the cloak of holiness yet. Temptation has re-entered into my life, and it's hard to fight it. Quiet times are more sparse now, since I feel more busy now. If you get a chance, please say a prayer for me. Or two. Or three.
My mind is so pre-occupied with what needs to be done now. It's hard to see beyond the immediate obstacles. Looking a little longer term, I'm hoping to go on a missions trip, perhaps over spring break. Perhaps God'll speak to my heart then. Hopefully He'll do so before then. And hopefully I'll be aware enough to hear Him. I seem to be struggling a lot between my own interests and God's will for me. I love a lot of things here at Stanford: Wushu, Testimony, ethernet, independence, pearl milk tea, and friends. It's hard to think that a few months from now, a lot of this will have been a passing fancy. I try not to be nostalgic, but it's true. Even if I end up around here, it certainly won't be the same. I could potentially keep up some things, but life will be different. I'm sure it'll also be tough not being around people of my age group... which is inevitable in that scary world apart from college.
Though I've only been here a year and a half, I've been so incredibly blessed here. So many opportunities to explore different interests... if only you have the time. My time here is more or less up. For those who are still in college... enjoy it while you can! Do your work, but take advantage of the other facilities and opportunities that you won't get anywhere else.
Looking ahead, I'm not scared. Just a little sad that the joys that I know now and here will not last. Yet, I am excited about the joys that await on the other side of that gate. And I rejoice in the joy of knowing I have a God to see me through it all.