Grrr... not happy. So it turns out I'm going to miss at least 3 of the 6 Friday wushu practices between now and the Berkeley tournament, due to the missions trip, spring break, and Viennese. That sucks because Fridays are when we work the most on our sets. In addition, I could miss up to two more Friday practices due to recording/mixing. And if I don't do my set, I'll likely be out of shape for the tournament, just like I was for collegiates. How sad that I can't do what I'd like to do during my last quarter here. On top of it all, I could end up spending my whole birthday in the studio, recording.
I don't know if you've ever recorded stuff in a studio before. It's just a lot of hassle. It's stressful, 'cuz you're trying to be perfect, all the time. And in a group, any person can screw up, forcing you to do it all over again. Multiply this over the course of 6-8 hours, and you can see why it's not incredibly fun.
In any case, it looks like I'll be spending my magical 24th birthday in the confines of a studio, singing the same thing over and over again. <sigh> Yeah, it's for a greater good. Yeah, it's worth it. But that doesn't mean I can't be bummed about having to sacrifice other things for it.
Ok, I feel better now... just needed to air out a little. People think I'm such calm and sacrificing guy. They don't realize how hard it is for me to be that way... I wanna be self-serving too. I wanna scream and whine and complain about every little thing that bothers me. I've just learned to hold it back and let it out later, in a way that is less obvious, and less violent. A lot of times, I realize that my gut reaction to something comes from just not being willing to give anything up. After I give it up, I find that it's not so bad.