Journal Entry:Feb 18, 2002, 00:07

Wushu tournament was awesome! Well, I didn't do so well, but I was impressed with all the competitors. And the big tricks competition was crazy fun to watch! I got to know some peeps from wushu better too. That was probably the best part of it. I am resolved to do better at the Berkeley tournament in April though. Going to train hard and really get good for that. And by then, I'll be able to wield my broadsword on stage too. =) Hopefully, I'll be able to add some showy maneuver by then too: either an aerial or a jump-inside kick into splits.

Surprise of the week! I got invited to have a second interview at Siebel! I was surprised since I thought I did pretty poorly at the first interview on Thursday. Perhaps I'll be more alert and prepared for the second interview.

Personal life has been less encouraging. I've been worrying about myself too much lately, and not really thinking of others. And, as always, the first thing I think about when I think about myself is how lonely I feel. It's odd though. I think I've had this feeling all my life... always being the outcast... never really belonging. Perhaps I just want too much. I think a lot of it is just a matter of me being impatient... and not realizing the friendships and love that I do have. But there's no reason you shouldn't realize that you're loved. So... if you're my friend/family member... remember, God loves you, and so do I! =)