[2003.08.28 1605h] [music] alizee \\ j'en ai marre ! today, i woke up by accidentally stabbing my hand with a mechanical pencil. recoiling my hand in pain while jolting myself awake, i noticed that a piece of the pencil lead remained impaled in my finger. the pencil lead has already been removed, but it seems as if some of the graphite is still stuck under the skin. there's an english version of the song mentioned above, but strangely, i feel as if i understand more of the singer's french than the singer's english. this would make sense if i considered french one of my primary languages and english one of my secondary languages. however, as since this diary entry is being written in english, it should be fairly obvious that this is not the case. yesterday morning, i went with my brother to lake lagunita to stare out at mars during its closest encounter with earth in nearly 60000 years. as usual, the lake was empty. i believe the last time i've seen the lake filled was during my freshman year. that year, i lived in the dorm right next to the lake, and sometimes, a few of us would romp out to the lake to stare at the stars. during one of the nights, we found a raft and sailed out to the middle of the lake. last year, a friend and i went out to the lake to see the planetary alignment that was occurring at the time. we found the raft, but the lake was empty, so the raft was simply lying on the ground. yesterday, i couldn't even find the raft.